Generally I am a big fan of seasons, when weather is concerned. I pride myself on liking change. I move around a lot. I change positions at work whenever I can. I keep moving along as much as I can. But what I don't like is when change is happening to the people around me and I am not in control. That is just unfair! Don't you agree?
Right now a couple of my friends that live here are going away. One permanently and the other we just don't know yet. In my selfishness I walked around for weeks moaning about why me? Why do I have to have friends that I love so much all over this country? Why can't everyone just be wherever I decide to be?
God has been reminding me that He will take care of me. But I am afraid to let him. What if He says that He is all I need! (which He does say 2 Corinthians 12:9"And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.")
For a long time I have been hurting from some things that people I love did to me and somethings I decided other people would do if they knew what I was really up to. Because of this I was feeling paralyzed by fear of going to church. I would try a church and then never go back. I needed a community, but I couldn't find it here.
God knew what I needed and he has brought me to a new place to not only worship, but to experience healing and I am very excited to see what develops. I am glad that he says his grace is suffecient, but he knows me well enough to know I need a little (a ton, really a lot) of community too!
